Sunday, January 8, 2012
In The Mood
I'm feeling blue again. The holidays are over. Winter is looming. I have people in my life who think they are always right, and I often feel ignored and unappreciated. Too often my opinions don't seem to matter. I need my friends, but they are far away.
There are bright points in my life. Every night before I go to sleep, I think how grateful I am to have a warm place to sleep and a roof over my head. I don't want for anything on the physical level. It's emotional feeding that I need. I feel powerless to change my life. I need a champion, someone to support me and cheer me on.
I think I will become my own champion. My comfort zone is beginning to feel like a prison. I am gathering my strength and working up the courage to effect change. I feel like a sleeping giant. It isn't my style to make a lot of noise; an iron fist in a velvet glove is more like it. Quiet change.
These old, familiar words describe exactly what I need:
I need the courage to change the things I can change. I very much need the serenity to accept the things I can not change (because they are there). I need the wisdom to know the difference, so that I'm not always fighting a losing battle. Rather than fight the things I can't change, I need to spend time changing the things I can change. I have made a list of those, and that is what I am going to get started on. Does that sound like a new year's resolution? Maybe it is.