I am struggling during this political season. Yesterday, I wrote a post about politics. One hour later I changed my mind and deleted the post. Why? Because I was comparing my political views to those of people I love. I felt I was being disloyal by criticizing their views.
They say "you can never go home again". I think I am experiencing this fact. I grew up in the "bible belt". I had the chance to move away and live in other places. Now that I've come back "home" I feel like an outsider. People I grew up with still believe the way they have always believed. I have changed. As a result, I often find myself at odds with those around me.
My parents watch only Fox News, while I still read the New York Times. When I visit them, there is a good chance they will be listening to Rush Limbaugh on the radio. When they speak of Sarah Palin in glowing terms, I keep my thoughts to myself. Am I being a peacemaker, or am I being a hypocrite?
It's not just family, either. I am reluctant to open up to those I meet here because I sense they will judge me, or that I will offend them. I know I am in the minority here in my political views. I miss being around people who think the way I do. It's nice to feel that you "belong".
As I write this, it occurs to me that it shouldn't be so difficult to disagree with those around you. We should all be able to accept the views of others without hard feelings. The climate we live in seems not to allow that.