Thursday, October 30, 2008


Do you ever feel adrift? Like you are at the bottom of a well and can't get out? That you're dying to get out of the house but just can't leave your comfort zone? I have been feeling that way for a while now. I feel trapped inside my house. The news is depressing. Politics is scary.

In Philadelphia, I used to get up early, shower, dress, and catch the train to work. I was busy and productive. Here, I have no purpose. I need to find a purpose. I work on sewing, but don't seem to be able to finish anything. I am drowning in materials I have gathered and can't think of what to do with them. It's like having "writer's block", but about everything.

Today, I am going out to search for some answers. I'm open to suggestions, and I will keep you posted.


anya said...

I wish I had suggestions, Judy. I know it must be difficult to switch to a small town lifestyle from the buzz of a big city. I haven't done that, but I can imagine. If you worked there and you don't work now, perhaps you quit working too early. The first time I quit working, I felt adrift too. I wasn't unhappy, but I didn't think I was ready to quit and I didn't quite know what to do with myself. In a panic, I went right back to work. (For me that was easy because it was our own company.) That clarified things for me. Once I was back, I realized that indeed, I was finished working, and happily went back into retirement and never looked back. But perhaps you are not ready. Is your husband happy there in your new life? Just curious.

But perhaps it isn't work, perhaps it is just the adjustment to the huge difference in lifestyles. That's a tough one. You probably will have to make a concerted effort to find the beauty in your new place and step out of your comfort zone to become a part of it. I'm looking at the same thing as you, but in to city this summer. I'm quite worried about how I'll make the transition. Inspirational books do help me when I am having inner problems. And, as Susan said, there are a lot of inspirational speakers on Oprah's soul series.

anya said...

The good thing is that you are thinking and talking about it. Keep up the dialog.


Momma to LG said...

Since leaving work to stay home, I feel like that every day.

Susan said...

You know that I'm drifting along in that same boat with you ... and you know what a few of my suggestions are. The whole concept of being in the moment is - things are never bad in the moment you are in. Badness is almost always a future or past concern or thought.

More deep thoughts from Black Street.
xo, S & the gang

Soul series. Eckhart. I'd love to know what you think about both.

Bearette24 said...

maybe a class in something interesting?

judy in ky said...

Anya, my husband is a workaholic so he keeps busy wherever we are. We chose a house near a golf course, so that keeps him happy, too. I had the perfect job before, so I was spoiled. Hours were flexible and the environment was great... I've been afraid I won't find anything I like.
A class might be a good idea. I've always enjoyed learning and studying.