Sunday, May 18, 2014
Yes, I have been quiet for a while. Sometimes there isn't much to write about. Not much has been happening here since we returned from our trip to Eastern Europe. At the moment we have no plans for another vacation, but I am hoping for Hawaii before the year is out.
We have been working on lightening our load, giving away or selling things that we no longer need. It seems to be a full-time job. There are days when I feel motivated and there are days that I don't seem able to face the task.
I have a high school class reunion coming up in September. That has brought a whole new dimension to my life. People I haven't seen for decades are beginning to show up on Facebook and email. Part of me wants to go and another part of me wants to run from it. How do you go back to being the person you used to be after so many years? Many of my high school friends have stayed in the area and have been used to regular contact with each other. I have been living away from the area for most of the intervening years, and it feels strange.
I think the past/present thing has been dominating my thoughts. I'm not sure why. I am uncomfortably aware of the fact that there are fewer years ahead of me than there are behind me, and in some instances I wish I had used those past years differently. I know the answer to this is to focus on the years ahead to make the most of them. It doesn't help to be looking back.